Exam dan sometimes..

Assalamualaikum,
Well,minguu exam da start,for exact, tomorrow gonna be my first paper, business communication.. studying here..scrolling there..typing somewhere.. hahaha..
Wasn't the attitude if dean list student obviously!!!! Unacceptable sangat..

Since mlm ni agak windy, cold, quiet which ia just nice for me to study and be a bit emotional.. hahaha
Dgn emosi x stabil ni, pinggang sakit tahap mak jemah, terfikir2 masa depan yg agak kabur..dgn keadaan diri sekrang yg agak kabur jga bagi ku..sadis bila difikirkan..fikir itu fikir ini..quite frustrating.. people round me being busy with life..very busy maybe..and some people are just making themselves lookkkkk like a busy while them not, and some making busy with others life..
Wasn't funny at all..and it just frustrating and complicated..

While typing this entry..im facing my book with my laptop open beside me waiting for me to read and use them wisely instead of use them as one of my accessories... haha..silly me..

Well, sometimes writing is just makes me relax..while chilling with this Dashyat song by Mojo...auchhh...breathtaking for a while. Without a cup of coffee k..haha

Its just sometimes...yaaa..sometimes..

nah muka cik tembam..

Weirdooo..

Since this midsem break start, and im alone in my room, even my housemate pun hilang entah ke mana..
I've started to feel..
Like, what shud i say??pendiam??obviously not..
Matang??not sure..
Just undescribeable....
Crying of course be my hobbies lately.
Reading quotes make me cry..
Received a text makes me cry..
Thinking also makes me cry.
Then,wht shud i do??
Sleep??nahh, i can't sleep..
Seems like i've been sleeping only for 4-5 hours a days..
Kinda weird u know..
Life is simple, just me,myself who make it hard..

Well, it's complicated.. ☺☺

Berfikir sejenak..

Ehemm..setelah difikir2 kan balik..dduk bertapa di dalam bilik sorang2..menangis xberlagu setiap malam..tumbuk dinding mcm bangang sampai tangan sakit sendiri..
Baru la aku dpt hidayah..dunia ni kan macam roda,kejap atas, kejap kat bawah..maybe sem lepas aku da kat atas kot..sem ni aku kat bawah pla..Allah kan maha adil lagi maha mengetahui..kita hanya merancang tuhan yang menentukan...
Mula ja cuti midsem ni,aku sorang ddk kat blik start hari jumaat lg,dan hari tu jgk la aku nangis xhenti smpai laa hari ahad..haaa,ko mampu nangis sorang2??hahaha..
Bengkak mata smpai hari isnin xsurut lagi,first time nangis bangang mcm tu..semua salah diri sendiri..yaaa,tak mampu da aku nak menunding jari..cukup la.usaha sudah, doa pun sudah..aku tawakal ja la..hidup mesti di teruskan..

Kepada yang berkenaan, aku maafkan segala dosa yang pernah korang buat kat aku, dan aku, dengan serendah2 diri ingin memohon maaf atas segala kesilapan yg pernah aku buat sebelum ni..����

Dengan izin Allah, semua akan baik seperti sedia kala..xda rancangan sebaik-baik perancangan Allah S.W.T..❤❤❤

Mr.kilat, petir n guruh..

Enak lena diulit mmpi..tiba2 d kejutkn oleh en.guruh..ahh..tbgun terkejut..Seriously pny tkejut..bgegar utk seketika...
Focusing on someone that can b hug or calm me down..my roomate??tdr xsedar2..xterusik dan terancam sekali pun dek en.guruh..
Still searching for someone who can calm me down..na'ah..failed to do so..sooooo, lets calm myself by?? Yeah..by myself...
There is a lot things to do other than calm me down..waiting to b call n txt??
Keep on dreaming then...

Hey faeizah,
Tahan nafas, tahan smpai esok..
Sila sedar dan bgn..
Dunia xselalu'y indah..
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Fed up!

Fed up dgn apa??dengan manusia yg x mengenang budi..bila susah bijak mencari bantuan..dikala senang??bagai kacang lupakan kulit..ahhh..coretan kali ini agak beremosi lagi..lagi dan lagi..
Update entry dipagi hari..awal subuh..ditemani lagu2 santai berkumandang di tlnga..menenangkan jiwa utk seketika..diwajah tenang bak air x berombak..di hati siapa yg tahu??
Manusia..manusia..semua punya hati dan perasaan namun x semua mampu menjaga'y..diam sahaja yang mampu dilakukan..
Sedari kecil dipupuk utk sentiasa merendah dri..cuba dan terus mencuba..kadang gagal..
Kadang sengaja utk meninggi dri..kenapa??supaya perasaan gembira dan bangga menyeliputi dri dan bahgia seketika dpt dirasakan..seketika sahaja..

Fed up..ya..sangat fed up..kadang terasa penat utk teruskan hidup..namun siapa la dri utk menentukan hidup mati seorang manusia..kalau saja bunuh dri itu masuk ke syurga..sudah 24 kali aku bunuh dri..haaa..kalau..andaii..barangkali??
Tidak setidak-tidak'y..akal fikiran masih waras, masih ligat berfikir cara utk meneruskan hidup..cara utk terus bernafas utk hari esok..fikirkan dri sendri..fikir keluarga..fikir sahabat2..itu pun kalau ada..haaa..

Fed up aku..fed up..berdoa saja yang mampu dilakukan saat ini..menangis??penat..sangat penat..andai saja mata ini boleh berbicara, sudah menjerit meraung pinta'y..haha.
Dri ini sudah fed up..
Mainan duniawi..
Sabar dan terus sabar..
ALLAH pasti menguji hamba'y mengikut kemampuan hamba itu sendiri..

Sabar......
Matahari pasti kan bersinar..

"Keep calm n silent"

Have u ever feel like d ketepikan??nahhhh...of course u would right...then, there's the feeling that i feel right now...busy??everyone busy lorh..students life wouldn't call as "students life' if there's no busy..if no busy then it should b called as "no life"..haha..Im busy n tired n need attention..but this kind of busy is not tht busy bout study,class n so on  but it's bout others..then what shud i say??
Or shud i be silent..or..i shud wear something like "keep calm and silent"..haha

Hey, what am i writing about?? Going nowhere...✌✌

Gurau?

Gurau..yaa..gurau..saya mmg seorang yang kuat bgurau..orang gurau2 mcmna pun aku boleh terima kalau x keterlaluan..xkisah la..tapi dalam ketidakisahan tu ada limit..ada batas'y kan..kira kebal da la telinga aku nak tahan gurauan2 kasar ni..nak jaga hati kan..hati member suma kena jaga..habis hati sendri sapa nak jaga??ingat best kena nganjing hari2?? Xbest k..tapi tu la..jaga hati kawan kannn...jagaaaa hati..

Tapi kalau gurau bab makanan ni kan..kasar sikit tu beb..ko nak ejek aku mkn byk tahap cipan aku x kisah..tapi kalau ko da tahap p hancur2 kan mknan tu..yg baik2 org boleh makan tapi ko sengaja nak mainkn benda tu..mcm agak rude kan..sakai kan..aku xboleh k..aku da cuba tahan..tapi xleh jgk..sorry la beb..just sorry..